Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Chapter 6-3: Panic Station

                Neal couldn't put his finger on it, but his wife seemed different lately. He’d learned to accept her grumpy days and mood swings but, recently, she’d seemed more withdrawn. Trying to talk to her about it got him nowhere and she insisted that everything was fine.

                “Alright baby, I’m heading to work.” He was disappointed but not surprised when she barely looked up from her book and waved him off with a little air kiss. He sighed and left.

                Snowflake Day arrived and the Carlyle’s headed over the Evangeline’s parents’ house for a gift exchange. She couldn't believe just how many people her mother had invited for the party. It was standing room only.

                All of her mother’s old friends arrived: the Panems, Neal’s family, the Malones. Camille noticed Danny not in attendance and, when she asked Sylie about it, she found out that he had passed away peacefully in his sleep just the night before. She pulled her friend close, trying to comfort her as best she could. Danny was the first of them to go and losing him was like a reminder that soon, their time would all come as well.
                As the party wound down, Neal took his wife’s hand and led her out to the porch. The Snowflake spirit had gotten to her and, as such, she was in a much mellower mood. When he put his arm around her and pulled her close, she snuggled in, seemingly content. He had no idea that he was about to ruin the mood.

                “So, I've been thinking,” he leaned in, whispering in her ear. “Let’s have a baby.” She tried to keep the look of shock and fear from her eyes. It wasn't that she didn't want a child, just not right now. It wouldn't be right to knowingly bring a baby into the mess she had created and was still trying to figure out how to fix.

                “I think I should finish school first.” It was as good of an excuse as any and maybe he’d drop it for now.
                “You've only got one semester left. We don’t know that you’d get pregnant right away. We could just start trying now. And if you did, well, you’d be finished before the baby was born anyway.”

                Evangeline stood, trying to take just a moment to organize her thoughts and feelings. “Neal, I’m sorry. This is…it’s just not the right time. I need some space right now and time to think. I’m going to stay here tonight. My old bed is still unused.” He looked at her, confused, unsure of what had just happened but agreed, trying to give his wife what she needed.

                As she settled into her old bed, surrounded by mementos of her childhood and pictures of her and Neal as teens, she wondered if she was doing the right thing. Yes, she decided. I've been doing the wrong thing for so long, I can barely tell anymore. She made up her mind that she would talk to Neal in the morning, even though it meant hurting him.

                He was waiting for her when she opened the door and she looked at him, still without the words to her thoughts. She knew she had to, she couldn't continue this roller coaster any more. He was a good guy and deserved better than what she’d been doing to him.

                Before she could stop him, he pulled her into a kiss. It was like he knew what she was there to say or at least knew that something was wrong. His kisses were almost angry, filled with need and desperation to make her forget everything she was about to do. Everything that she’d just been about to say melted from her brain as Neal urgently kissed her.

                His hands removed her clothing and, lost in the need, she let him. Unlike previous love-making, he didn’t take her to the bedroom and lay her gently down. Instead, her pushed her back against the nearest surface, in this case the bookshelf, and hoisted her up to him. It had never been like this with him before and she soon was gasping, shaking as an orgasm washed over her.

                As he set her back down, all the things she’d been planning on saying rushed back to her and she groaned, realizing that she’d just made things that much harder by allowing this to happen.

                “What do you mean, you want a divorce” Neal said, completely confused at where this was coming from. Even though he’d known she was upset, this hadn’t been even on his list of things that might be going on. “I’m sorry I brought up the baby thing. If you’re not ready, you’re not ready. I’m okay with that. We can wait.”

                “Neal, it’s not just the baby thing. We got married too young. I don’t seem to know what I want anymore. I don’t know who I am and I don’t know how to figure that out and still be Evangeline Carlyle. I need to figure me out before I figure us out, okay?”

                “Evey, are you sure? Please don’t do this. I know it’s been tough but I love you. We can still make this work. You know I support you and, even though I wasn't happy at first, we've made you going far away to school work.” She couldn't look him in the eye. She knew it was underhanded not to bring up Miles. Did it really matter now? She was breaking his heart anyway, no need to add insult to injury.

                “Please, Evey.” She could hear the wavering in his voice, a sure sign that he was close to tears which was something she’d never seen. She couldn't bear it. As her muscles tensed, ready to move, it seemed that time froze for just a second. She could see the possible outcomes of this situation. If she put her arms around him now, cried with him and promised to make it work, she would never be able to clean up the mess she had created. It hurt now, but this was something she had to do. She tilted her head and looked at him sadly, a tear escaping her own eye before she grabbed her clothes, got dressed, and left without another word.

                “Do you want to talk about it?” The divorce papers had arrived before the next term had started and Evangeline had sat down and told her family much of the same thing that she had told Neal. She didn't mention Miles to any of them. Though both her parents were sad that things hadn't worked out, their daughter’s happiness was more important and they supported her, regardless.
                “No, thanks Renata.”
                “Are you sure?”
                “I’m positive. What’s done is done, let’s just drop it.”

                When they had come back to campus, the home they had been renting before had been sold so they’d had to find a new place to stay. They had all agreed that renting had been much better than staying in the dorms. Luckily, they were able to find a house right across from the quad. The previous tenant had graduated and moved out of town.

                “I missed you.” Evangeline snuggled closer into Miles’ arms as they sat in front of a fire at the fraternity house. He smiled down at her, content to have her back. He didn't know about her divorce yet but she was about to change that.

                “Miles, I have to tell you something.” He looked down at her. She had a way of putting him on his toes, never knowing whether she was about to break bad news to him or delight him with good. “Neal and I got divorced. Over break. He doesn't know about us, it wasn't important.” A grin spread from ear to ear as he heard the news.

                The semester sped by quickly. With much less worrying and appearances to keep up, Evangeline felt freer than ever. Kieran became a regular at the house. His dorm was loud and messy so he often came over to get work done or study though the two took time out for fun every once in a while. She also tried to spend as much time with Miles as she could though her free time was rather sparse.

                With graduation coming up, Evangeline spent most of her time studying and playing catch up. She was still exhausting herself with classes, trying to graduate on time. She would dash from class to class, barely time to eat between them. As soon as her last class of the evening let out, she race home, eat whatever leftovers were in the fridge and barricade herself in her room to study and do her homework. The constant struggle to maintain her grades and keep up with her classmates left her feeling ill and tired all the time.

                When the flu persisted for a couple of weeks, Evangeline finally went to see the school nurse. Her vitals were checked and all seemed to be fine. She described her schedule and her diet, both needing a bit more regulation. “And when was your last menstrual cycle dear?” Evangeline was dismayed to realize she couldn't even remember. She’d been so busy with everything, she hadn't taken the time to mark her calendar. The nurse gave her a crooked, sad smile, all too familiar with young college girls getting knocked up away from home for the first time.

                She didn't think it could be. Wouldn't I know, if I was pregnant? Surreptitiously, she went to the corner store to buy a test. She looked around, hoping no one she knew would catch her buying the small box. As soon as she got home, she locked herself in the bathroom and waited a very long two minutes. When the test showed a faint pink positive mark, Evangeline could barely believe her eyes. She knew she should have known better. A scare in high school should have taught her to be careful. She had been though. She had birth control, she’d been taking it!

                Fuck. She groaned. She realized that she’d run out of pills and had never gone to her doctor to get more over break. She’d been so distracted with everything going on with Neal that she had plumb-bob forgotten. How could I be so stupid? First things first. I need to graduate. Then I can deal with this.

                Between the Neal and Miles triangle, and now this, Evangeline had become quite the accomplished liar. She kept her pregnancy to herself and let people believe she had the flu. Her morning sickness wasn't too awful and since she spent most of her time alone, no one was any the wiser.

                Soon, the snow on the hills began to melt as summer slowly made its way to the campus. Graduation was upon them and Evangeline was sure that she had managed to make it.

                “My parents will be here tomorrow for the ceremony. They don’t know about you yet but I’d like to introduce you to them, without telling them too much.” She was nestled in the crook of his arm as he walked her back to her house after her first exam of the day.

                As they neared the street, she saw the last thing she expected: her parents, with Neal, sitting on the steps to her house. Shit. Maybe they didn't see me yet. She saw them stand and her mother cross her arms. Yep, they’d seen her.

                She turned to Miles. “Just stay here, okay?”
                “Is that him?” She didn't have to ask which him he meant so she just nodded. “I thought you said it was over?”
                “It is! I don’t know what he’s doing here. I haven’t answered his calls lately.” Miles looked ready to march over with her and prove his dominance, like a wild animal. “Miles! Stop. I can handle this. Just, go home. I’ll see you tomorrow.” She glared at him, angry that he was making this about him instead of realizing the mess that she was now in. He turned and stalked off, without another word. Great. Now I have to fix things with him too later.

                She crossed the street and unlocked the door, letting everyone in. No one said anything. She hated seeing the look of disappointment on her father’s face. She waited for someone to say something, most likely her mother with the ‘I told you so’.

                “Is this why you asked for a divorce?” Neal exploded first. Her parents went to the kitchen to give them a little privacy even though there were no doors to close. The house was too small for that. “How long have you been seeing him?”
                “Sinsectmester,” she mumbled, hoping he’d just let it go.
                “Since second semester! I’m sorry! I didn't know how to tell you!” He opened his mouth to say something and then quickly snapped it shut again. She saw him take a deep breath, most likely to calm himself and, before she could say another word, he turned and left, slamming the door behind him.

                As she heard him stomp down the stairs, she turned, preparing herself for the lecture sure to come from her parents. She expected the lecture and, in fact, almost welcomed it. All the guilt that she had carried around so long finally was going to be lifted from her shoulders.

                She finds that she isn't prepared for her father’s reaction. “We raised you better than that. How could you do that? You've been taught, from day one, that honesty is the most important thing in this world! Not only were you disloyal to a man you promised to cherish and love forever, you LIED about it! For months. To all of us.” She turns and runs from the room, tears streaming down her face, her pregnancy hormones making her more emotional than normal.

                She never wanted to upset anyone. Yes, she’d royally fucked up but hearing her father’s disappointment and anger was almost too much to bear. He’d never raised his voice to her before and it hurt so much to hear it now.

                “He’ll get it over.” Her mother’s voice from behind startled her.
                “Oh mom. I never meant to hurt anyone!”

                “I know baby. We all have to make our own path in life. Part of making that path sometimes means cutting through the bushes in the way. Sometimes, when you get where you’re going, you realize there was an easier path but you can’t go back and put the bushes back together. You've just got to keep going.”

                With her mother’s advice tucked away, Evangeline wiped away her tears and promised herself that she would get through graduation without any more hiccups.

                “We did it!” Evangeline hugged Kieran the next night as they were finally released as new graduates. “What are you going to do now?”
                “I haven’t decided yet.”
                “You’ll have to come visit soon!”
                “Of course. I hope to be there when the little when is born.” He smiled down at her stomach for a moment. Kieran, of course, was the only one that knew about her pregnancy and had been supportive since she’d told him.

                Neal had left the day before, not staying for the ceremony and her parents had a flight out shortly after. She and Kieran took a quick picture together to document the day before she rushed home to finish last minute packing for the drive back to St. Claire.

                In the middle of the night, the three had finally managed to get everything loaded back in the moving truck and were on their way home for the final time.

                Emerson moved out not long after they arrived back in town. He’d found a decent priced apartment near downtown and wanted to be closer to the music studios. “Are you sure this is it?” Renata had imagined something a little more warehouse-y, rather than townhouse-y.
                “Yeah, I’m sure. I’ve got the address right here.”

                “Em, you got a dog!”
                “And it stinks. So does that laundry! Do you ever clean?” Since finding out she was pregnant, she’d noticed her senses, especially her sense of smell, were much more sensitive now.

                “Nah, I usually do most of the cleaning,” a familiar voice said from the back of the apartment.
                “Kieran! What are you doing here?”

                “Remember when I told you about Lila?” Evangeline nodded, remembering the girl Kieran was in love with.
                “I found out she got a record deal from a label here in the city and moved here. I hadn't decided where to go yet so St. Claire is as good a place as any. Your brother was kind enough to offer me a place to stay.”
                “Are you two…?”
                “No. Just friends right now. Like I said, she’ll come if, when, she’s ready.”

                Kieran wasn't the only new arrival to St. Claire. Evangeline got a call from Miles asking if he could see her. She hadn't known he was in town but readily agreed to meet him in central park. They’d barely talked since graduation and, when he did answer the phone, he was always curt and to the point. She was hoping they’d be able to smooth things over now.

                “I’m glad to see you.” She smiled. “What are you doing in St. Claire?” Abruptly, the sky flashed as a bolt of lightning streaked across the sky and the clouds burst with a torrential downpour.
                “Let’s go back to my place and I’ll explain.” His place?

                They arrived at a small loft studio in the heart of the downtown district. He walked in, then turned, welcoming her as a small, bundle of white fur barked her own welcome.

                “I’m sorry I've been aloof lately. It…hurt when you picked Neal over me. Let me finish,” he admonished, seeing her about to interrupt. “I know that wasn't it now but it felt like it. You didn't even want to introduce me to your family.”
                “I’m so sorry. There was so much…”
                “You didn't let me finish,” he scolded, but with the slightest upturn of the corners of his mouth, trying not to smile. “Anyway, I want to try to work things out. I was offered a spot on a couple different sports teams. When the St. Claire Stallions made an offer, I decided to take it, so I’ll be close.”

                Touched that he would move close, hoping to have the chance to make things work, she crossed the room and folded herself into his arms. “I’d like that.”
                “Very much.”

Chapter 6.2, Part 2                                                                                                                                            Chapter 6.4

Sorry it's been so long since I last updated. I had a contest due then I got distracted with CAW. Finally, I realized how long it had been and I got to it.

Uni is finally over. I doubt I'm going to do that again. Unless my sim gets super high scholarship marks and can finish the degree part in one term. I'm happy to have it over and will be getting on with the rest of the generation shortly. I'm especially excited that Generation 7 is finally on the way!

I'm quite sad though that my generation 5 sims are starting to die off. First it was Danny, then Pearl. Camille got to spend some time with Pearl beforehand. Apparently, according to Story Progression, Joshua and Sylie are now spending time together, which I find rather adorable. As long as Sylie can't have any more children. Her progeny are already starting to crowd out the rest of the town! Camille and Donovan have both hit 110 days (the length of my lifespan) and I'm scared to start the actual game again. I might need to take another break, just to prepare myself for the eventual emotional distress their deaths will cause me.

And yes, you read right. Delilah is moving to St. Claire. Perhaps, in an alternate reality, they can finally have happiness. *Glares at Buckley*


  1. *gasp! Yes? Please? Really? That would be so awesome to see them finally have their happily ever after! Even if it's on the side.

    Oh wow. So just who is the baby daddy then? And I'm on pins and needles to know how Miles will react when Evangeline finally tells him. Oh! And Neal! Good grief I'll bet he'll be a real pill to swallow when he finds out. Ouch.

    Oh, that was not the best way for her family to find out about her affair. Why on earth was Neal there in the first place? Geez? Bent on self torture a little?

    Oh! And now what will her family say when the find out that Miles has moved to town! Such a tangled web! I can't wait to see how it all unravels.

    1. Well, I'm letting Story Progression take the reins of that but we'll at least find out if they're meant to be or not.

      Next chapter, we'll discover who the father is as well as why Neal showed up at graduation.

      As unhappy as her parents are with her choices, I can't imagine either of them really taking it out on Miles. They may not be happy about everything but they really do want their daughter to be happy. Donovan might have to have a talk with him though.

  2. Oh man, Neal is so heartbreakingly sweet, but dear lord is he ever clueless! Why would you bring up a baby when your marriage is already on the rocks? Actually, scrap that, I know why. Still, using a baby to fix your relationship with your wife is not the solution! :(

    Wow, the divorce scene was so, so sad, but I'm glad she went through with it. Poor Neal. And the pregnancy? I did *not* seen that coming! I probably should have, but that really took me by surprise. (Neat pose, by the way. Must find that one for my own legacy! :) Is it Neal's baby or Miles' I wonder?

    Yay! Miles is moving to St. Claire. :D I really like him (and not just because I think he's like, soooo hawt either :P). I can't wait to see how it all plays out with him and how he'll react to her pregnancy! That's going to be a game changer, for sure. Also, I hope Evangeline's parents don't try to interfere or judge him based on their experience in the Uni world. Especially Donovan. He needs to get off his high horse and let his daughter figure things out on her own. (Loved the scene with Camille and Evangeline though. That was really sweet.)

    Kieran! D'aww, thank you so much for using him. :D I can't stop smiling, it was so fun getting to see him! And ohmygosh, Lila, you better behave. *glares at her* I really hope SP hooks them up, but I guess we'll see. Lila's charismatic and Kieran's a loner, so it might not happen.

    1. He wasn't necessarily thinking of it as a way to fix his marriage but yeah, he was pretty clueless about the seriousness of the problems they were having. And yes, the divorce was really sad. I contemplated if I really wanted to do it or not but decided it would be for the best. If she had been completely honest though, she might have avoided some of the issues she is having now.

      I'll link the pose set in the WCIF tab for anyone who wants it.

  3. Oh dear, what a mess Evangeline's made of things! I feel so sorry for Neal and I hope for his sake the child isn't his (although I'm afraid it will be) because I think that would add insult to injury...

    I actually thought Donovan was right to speak to Evangeline the way he did, I wouldn't want him to stay angry with her, but she had lied to everyone and sometimes you need to be told when you've done wrong.

    Btw, so far as Kieran and Delilah are concerned, I dropped them into my world as townies and so far they've had a baby, broken up and got back together again...

    1. Yes, Donovan certainly had every right. Evangeline was so upset by it because she knew he was right. I'm hoping she will learn but, if the game is anything to judge by, my guess is no.

  4. I'm not sure how I missed this update! I went to read the one you posted a day or two ago, and was lost, then realized I'd missed this one.

    So anyway, wow, what a roller coaster! But is this Neal's baby? That would complicate things even more. I was a little surprised by her dad's reaction to Miles. Neal's, not so much for obvious reasons.

    Well I'm glad SOMEONE is keeping Kieran and Delilah happy ::glares at Buckley too::

    1. Nope, it really, really is Miles' baby. She's not lying about that one. Donovan and Neal are friends and, remember, Neal spent a lot of time with them while the kids were off in school. So, I think, regardless of the divorce, Donovan was hoping his baby could reconcile with Neal. To find out she had been betraying him and lying to everyone about it was very disappointing.

  5. The scenes with Evangeline and Neal were heartbreaking. Oh man, it was hard to read. I felt so sorry for him. I'm glad the baby isn't his. (I assume it's not since she had time to get divorce papers and a new school term had already started. Maybe sim lawyers work faster than human ones. Haha. I guess we will see.) Hopefully Neal can have a clean slate and find his own HEA.

    I'm anxious to know how Miles will take the news of Evangeline's pregnancy.

    Yay for Kieran and Delilah!

    1. It took me a few seconds to realize what a HEA was! LOL! And yes, even though sim lawyers work faster, she still definitely was too early in for it to be Neal's.

      Truth time: she didn't actually get pregnant until after coming home from Uni. I was planning on getting her pregnant but pregnancy and Uni don't play well together. Even if you use MC to knock them up (since you can't do it the normal way). She script-errored and I had to restart the save. So I faked it and she got pregnant right after getting home.

  6. Awww, I feel bad for Neal. Evangeline should definitely have handled things differently than she did. Instead she confused both Neal and Miles, possibly herself even, lol. What a mess!

    I thought it was good for her to hear her Dad's words, we count on those close to us to give us the truth. Parents are usually one of the first to tell us the truth, and then one of the first to offer forgiveness. I hope she listens to her Dad (and her mom) and makes wiser decisions in the future. =)

    1. Just so you know---I remember typing out a comment on this chapter---but I didn't see it here---I have no idea where it went! O.o So I typed another one, though I am sure my first one was much better, lol :P

    2. I checked my spam. I had a few in there from previous chapters but nothing from you so Blogger must have ate it!

      Hopefully with a baby on the way, Evangeline will begin to grow up and make smarter decisions. With her though, I never know!